February 2019
We were just reading and studying the symptoms and diseases in our textbooks and then suddenly I was the one experiencing it.
It started December 2018 as an enlarged lymph node on my neck which continuously grow and multiplied over weeks. After several workups and medications that did not work, the doctor recommended to do a biopsy. By that time, second semester at school just started. I consulted my professor in surgery and he suggested to do the biopsy himself and wanted to do it as soon as possible. Before the procedure, they did a routine x-ray and they found a large tumor in my chest (anterior mediastinum) just above my heart which was surprising because my x-ray was normal just a month ago. There were also multiple nodules found on my lungs which are causing some fluid build up. I was alone that time at the hospital and after hearing that from my doctor I tried to act like it was nothing serious but when he left my room, that was the only time I cried really really hard, knowing how serious my condition may be and that I might need to leave med school.
A week after, just few days after my 24th birthday, the result of the biopsy came out. It wasĀ Non-Hodgkinās Lymphoma B cell type, a type of cancer that starts from the white blood cells affecting the lymphatic system which is an important part of our immune system. The good thing is that based on studies, lymphoma is very responsive to chemotherapy and have a good prognosis.
At the time of my diagnosis, I already had difficulty breathing for days and canāt climb the stairs without running out of air badly. So when I went back to my doctor, he immediately wanted to admit me at the hospital. Apparently, I have a massive pleural effusion on my left lung, 2/3 of my left lung is already filled with fluid. I was scheduled for chest tube thoracostomy (CTT) insertion the next day to drain the fluid. It was a simple and quick procedure but I had complications after the operation. I was half awake and I could only remember that I kept on coughing and everyone around me were in commotion. The enlarged lymph nodes on my neck started compressing my airway that I could no longer breathe. They couldnāt intubate me and they had to do an emergency tracheostomy.
I woke up in the ICU with tubes on my side and a hole on my trachea. My doctor said that I went into critical state and they nearly lost me there. They started the chemotherapy immediately. Thankfully, I did not experience most of the side effects of chemo like nausea and vomiting. But after the first dose of chemo drugs, my hair started to fall out which is the hardest part for me to accept aside from leaving med school.
Doctors said it was amazing how I responded dramatically from the chemo because almost all of the enlarged lymph nodes compressing my neck are already gone just days after and I was doing good compared to others.
I stayed at the hospital for 22 days. I had to withdraw from medicine school for the treatment. When I started in med school, I always prayed that nothing bad will happen that will make me stop from finishing it, like maybe not having enough money for my tuition but I never thought I would be sick like this because I rarely get sick before. I did asked God at one point why now? Why now when I finally found something I donāt want to loose? Something worth holding on to no matter how difficult it is. But God showed me instead that there are far more greater things to be grateful for. Iām just thankful that Iām still alive and still fighting cancer right now. During my time at the hospital, I felt all the love and support of my family, friends, classmates, doctors who are mostly my professors also, and even the whole school of medicine. When my classmates visited me, the halls of the hospital outside the ICU were filled with med students. All their support and encouragement were overwhelming and heartwarming. Even if there were times that it was very hard and the pain becomes too much to bear, it was not hard to see what I could still be grateful for. As cliche as it may sound, I know that God has a great plan for me even though I canāt understand it right now. I could have just died during that time in the operating room but I didnāt. Iām excited on what God can and will do in with my life.
Iām back home now just resting, recovering, and trying to gain again some weightĀ so I decided to write again and hereās my journey on fighting lymphoma, living, surviving, and embracing whatever comes ahead.